Just be.

Just be.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

A tsunami on Reiger Street

Saint Benedict father of Monasticism (one of my dear wife's favorite saints.)

Eleven: Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry it out.

The Tsunami had ended and I washed ashore too tired too drink and too tired too die. A shadow engulfed me from all sides. "The end was near...one way or another." The darkness of this moment was indescribable.

My last drink of despair was on Reiger Street in Dallas, Texas. A fitting location if you know the neighborhood. The Four Horsemen waited in the alley...but they had grown tired of this "denizen."

Stripped bare of  my own resources on June 23rd of 2005 the words of my spiritual advisor echoed into the universe and the depth of my soul. "David you are the type of alcoholic that can only get sober with a spiritual experience." "Why don't you just do step 11 for one year and nothing else." Since that day it has never occurred to me to take a drink.

Phil has moved on from this world to a place where the Four Horsemen do not roam. Just the horses that frolic in the fields called "peace."

Gracias Adios



Darlene said...

Wow. I remember this day. Love you.

David L. Gray (Yoseph M. Daviyd) said...

That is a truly beautiful recollection! Thanks Dave!

bish73 said...

2 thumbs up :-)

Marissa and Jose said...

What a beautiful recount of what sounds like a divine call that you heard and answered. May God always be with you and continue to bless you. Thanks for sharing - you write beautifully.

Anonymous said...

A safe place to share Spiritual Concepts, develop them and learn from others' experience. To those I wonder; (Is)this an interactive blog? Some concepts or perspectives grow because Spirituality is an individual adventure. By definition,12-Step "singleness of purpose" guidelines tend to group them by mass and limit comments to those that refine theory so the most ppl get tools to stand undisturbed during life's ups and downs; and not drink. Do awakenings of of this type fall within the wake up Dave blog as reflections on unfolding spiritual experience?